finally back, at home and on this blog.

it has been a ride. enriching is the word i use.

i think i have experienced a very wide range of emotions in this 3 weeks. and truly, india does change people. if only for a short period of time. the things you see, smell, listen to, are just beyond my singaporean imagination. i bring country into play because it is what shapes your views and ideas, pretty much i think.

the world is an incredibly unfair unjust place. and by not doing or saying anything is as political, my recent hero, arundhati roy, author of “god of small things”, which won the booker prize in 1997, said this. i cant help but agree. i was reading her book and felt a strong disgust and repulsion at what some corporations n govt can do. at the same time, i had a brand new respect and gratitude for singapore’s govt. as imperfect as i often thought it is, it plays fair, at least, in my opinion.

the change in me is not sth words can describe or perhaps i am not tt much a wordsmith.

i am not depressed for sure. in fact i feel more happiness. i feel tt i can let go abit more and not take things too hard on myself. alot of bad things are happening and i guess i finally agree tt i am not superman and close to certainly cant change big things. or maybe i decided to let that burden go. in my capacity, i can do small things, touch people’s hearts, reach out to people, engage young minds, inspire people.

the new mantra is ” the world is a bad place, try your best to contribute sth to humanity”

and oddly, i feel the need or obligation to really live my life to my fullest after the india trip. this means, taking care of myself, physically, be in physical health, appearance, or anything. no more sloppy attitude to life. maybe i can slack, i can rest, but i cannot be sloppy anymore. to put it in a certain perspective, having such conducive environment and such entitlements to life’s challenges, not being the full person as i can be is not bringing justice to the poor indians in india.

justice. huh! wads tt?

as the year comes to an end, i am approaching my 25th birthday looking like a 18yr old nonetheless. its been a quarter century living here man. its time to payback, to this society, this earth who gave me time to think, capacity to think and a bittersweet amount of self controlled memory.

oh.. and i haven mentioned i am gg to start a new blog? yeah.. 3rd one by now. about travelling but with a more conscious mind to it.