sth odd happened recently.

i can feel my passion for dance slipping away.

esp on sunday. when i totally have no mood at all when i shld have choreo-ed sth. and i dont feel inspired and ‘dance-y’ at all recently.. no movements are in my mind.haha.. nothing nice at least.

is it because of my nie work? so much work that i have no cognitive space for dance and dance related stuffs. bogged down with education psychology, pedagogy, creativity, parental involvement, lesson planning, calculus and all.. trying to multitask everytime that not much work actually is done. done this makes sense? haha..

not tt i am complaining really.. well.. not in the i hate what i am doing way.. matter of fact,i love it. i am embracing every moment of discovery and intellectual debate with others or myself in my mind. anything with regards to education and how to improve and enhance the student performance and experience.

is this self actualisation? haha.. at least from the perspective of happiness, i am in the 2nd and 3rd stage of happiness- being in the zone when time just flies away and feeling a sense of meaning from what i am doing.

where then is dance? where too is travel in this so called hierarchy of needs? am i someone who just enjoys the little brain activity of delighting myself when i learn sth new and think abt questions with no easy answers. or the times when i feel a deep sense of empathy for the disadvantaged members of society?

trying to find that piece of zen in me again.