is it half empty or half filled?

are you optimistic of pessimistic?

do you see the darkness or the light at the proverbial end of the tunnel?

is it grey clouds or silver lining?

is it a quiet and calm or boring and lifeless?

are you trying to help or messing around?

i dont know.

i think i always say ‘i dont know’. fact is. i really dont.

i cant quite decide if i am optimistic or pessimistic.

fact is. depends on the situation i guess.

but.. wads out is out. and i am a lil disturbed.

to be honest.

a coincidence? that brief eye contact seem to suggest otherwise. wad is happening really? in any case..

time’s up. have to move on i guess.

i think sometimes we are so blinded by our intentions we cant see what we are doing to other people? if you do.. why are you still continuing? maybe.. love or hate is a matter of perspective as well.. maybe we are both thinking the other party is selfish. maybe we both are.

excited by what lies ahead. and.. oddly.. i feel a lil sad for you guys? ironic but its like how i feel an odd form of sadness for evil people who never get to see prettier things in life. i dont think your methods work really. so.. maybe you will never get to do sth like wad we do.

i feel a surge of vengeance suddenly. maybe.. all this time i felt too uncomfortable with what is happening beneath visible lines. to much unfairness. personal or not. on hindsight.. maybe you guys feel its unfair to you all too?

i have a choice. to build up sth tat can make me, make us, happy.