korea.

forgettable.

already i dont think i will visit the same place again after i have visited it cos there are just so many other places to visit. but korea, esp seoul is really no incentive other than the good quality fashionable clothes. but busan is kinda nice and jeonju too.. and maybe jeju when its autumn.

but then again.. i dont seem to have any autumn holidays in the coming 4 years. only winter n summer. oh wells..

i think its the people? how the girls look like a certain model its scary. like 95% of the girls fir within 3 hairstyles. the same big eyes, bangs, curls, the same looks.. doesnt have them we watched a mini documentary abt how girls get cosmetic surgery to look better. to fit a certain type of beauty. and the fact tt the adverts for the clinics are aplenty and there are tons of the clinics too! and how people jsut spit on the floor. no rubbish bins. people shovin u ard. i guess.. u get the picture.

disappointed? hmm.. lets just say i am glad i get to see the real korea? and the chat i had with the daegu guy in jeonju is nice. a real chat abt life in korea. richard kwak. hope to see him again.

work is gg to start soon. in  a week’s time or so.. i am kinda.. excited i guess.. finally getting to this phase of my life where i can earn my own keep and be responsible for my own life for for good. its liberating. somehow.. financial independence. in a  certain sense la.. and seeing how work changing some of the people ard me.. i hope i can still stay grounded. and save up my moolah.. its always useful to have money in your pockets.

more imptly.. i need a purpose. to know wad i am doing is meaningful.. for now.. dance is gg to keep me busy.. and i think.. i will try my best to not be too competitive and just be content. being content is a life skill mann.. and somehow esp hard for me in dance. dunno y.. so.. yeah.. just be glad i have the opportunity to dance.. people still want me. and count my blessings.. try my best. and dont be too hard on myself. thou.. it still does sound a little escapist to me.. but. i guess. it will make me happier. if it sound  a little selfish.

life’s hard isnt it.

to just be happy and consider so many different angles.

but life is also full of its wonder and surprises and randomness. and i am slowly but surely getting to taste it more n more..

if there is one thing i took away from the korea experience.. it is that.. somehow.. i appreciate singapore more.. yes. it can be monotonous and the pressure to conform is kinda strong.. but.. its comforting.. maybe its the familiarity.. or just tt people are nicer than in korea. i dunno. i feel a certain lightness today. like post london. maybe its just post long travel. thou i still feel ‘sad’ for my fellow singaporeans. which can sounds arrogant but.. yeah.. most are kinda stuck in a certain mindset, ritual, which they find themselves helpless. and i wld say alot dunno how to enjoy life. or relax perhaps.. which dont really need much money actually..

i want to feel content.